Subversive Health

Iʻm in my Emotional Shallows right now. And it is cold, wet and boggy. But, the amazing thing is that I am aware of where I am. Yesterday I confessed to my oldest daughter that I didn’t have a “nuanced grasp” of my emotions. She asked how I dealt with them and I said “I guess they are either ON or OFF”.

We both burst out laughing . . . that statement we SAD but TRUE. And now I realize WHY it is that we need to give each other the Gift of Time — Time for an Extroverted Intuitive Self  (me) to reach out into my Auxiliary Functions — Feeling and Thinking — and gently call them up. Asking them to work together to help me feel and think and gradually understand.

It takes TIME! And when people don’t understand how SLOW I am and keep pushing me to come to a conclusion I get angry. Well, Anger IS the first defensive reaction of the Feeling function. But, anger is only supposed to buy me some Time.

Too often I have refused to go into the boggy shallow of my Feeling Function. So, I can understand WHY “helpful” souls want to push and tug at me to “COME on IN”. But, gosh! Look at all those brambles. I need to go and get my wadding boots on! I need a helper. And the Helper cannot be the one that I feel is pulling and pushing me.